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Paint 07/09/04 I wonder why I let you shake me and why it feels so good I wonder why I let you break me If you only understood The way I feel confuses me It's not grey nor black nor white It's starlight yellow with shades of black like sunshine in the night You elicit alien highs to let me down You feed my heart with open lies you make me want to unite with the floor and secrete myself deep into my cries I'll camouflage my sunshine feelings The brightness just may blind you I'll carry shades of black on my shoulders and pour them on me to delight you The obscurity is what keeps you here Which is why you'll never truly know While my darkness may seem uninviting My sunshine needs a chance to grow Swell up and spread and lock inside me until I'll feel ready to burst It will turn my organs into poison while I wait for you to quench my thirst That will never be you You'll never be my soldier Never to be my shining armor or my way away from torture I don't know what I'm waiting for Some miracle, some dream Some Godforsaken fantasy Is where I might come clean You'll never see my complete sunshine unleashed from the crooked shade You'll never know my veritable feelings because you'll always see them grey I think you like that tactic better You would rather not attempt to see My once deep feelings becoming hollow Waiting for you to set them free Everytime they surface you push them down into the dirt Then you walk all over them To leave me sad and hurt I don't know why I sit and watch you and say it's all okay I wonder why some minute laughter allow's me to tolerate your ways Right now I will just say Thank You for sharing your exciting nights For your random living free with me Saving me from reason while I was right One day I may grasp that rare happiness The kind that never goes away Maybe one day I'll live this dream with you washed out of my days

Dear Grandfather 07/29/04 Let me read your poems one last time May I dream and may I weep of your reason and your rhyme? Your vivid phrases - so visual I never cease to be amazed The descriptions of your feelings hark me back to better days Blissful days when you were here Most poignant day you were gone Well, I knew you were leaving but not for that long Every day I think of you my tears begin to fade and each passing moment I ask God why He had to take you away So special that you are to me still many years down the line Your picture forever embedded in my head as well as your words of softer times The letters that you wrote to me before my days of literary comprehension Mean more to me as each second passes Enjoyment as intense as an obsession So at this time, my friends are celebrating enjoying what is "normal" I sit here at my computer screen Thinking of your comfort Well, there is nothing more I desire doing On this Independence day 2004 and not one thing I'd be rather wishing than you knocking at my door

Affetto 10/21/04 Show me your eyes Your world as you have suffered And all you will endure from your malicious surrounding Uncovered Your eyes are so frightening sometimes What I want is to take pain for you My tired heart will ache for two And I will be that strong gasp of air when you cannot breathe The strike in your vocal chord when you cannot speak The sigh of relief When your day is through The far off bright side of your dreadful news The squint of clarity in your blurry vision The voice in your head that tells you to keep going Your trenchcoat in the pouring rain The healing of your past pain All of the pleasure you desire The lighting to your bedside fire I wish everyone could envision what I do when I think of you and I hope no one ever feels the fear I do when I think of losing you

I Love You Dad 11/14/04 My Dad, my father, my friend The epitome of aplomb Aghast at the advice you gave me when I was callow and weak and alone You walked with me through the tunnel of life I knew not what the world would hold You gave me security at any hint of peril When I was fearful, you were bold You strive me to be liberal I want you to see me succeed You give me hope in a cold world The embodiment of utter greed You're my gasp of fresh air My savior of despair My one way out of trouble You gave me life, gave me the light You are my Guardian Angel's Double I love you, Dad

Affetto ( II ) 12/04/04 Tossing in bed with his words in my ear Folding down questions created by fear Aghast by his presence when he walked in my room I can smell his hair And the way he kissed his mom's perfume His brother's love, he would consume His bestfriend's voice, he would miss soon Soft pretty smile when I felt his embrace My stomach burned when his hand touched my face Heartbeat in the stereo And the volume on high I hope he doesn't ask me why No explanation, I'd have to lie Weeks passed by and we've moved onto months The fire is hotter than the first time we touched

A Star Who Shined 05/30/05 A star who shined A devotee of wine The diamond who danced A smile at glance Sinful, a scowl Sparkled the eyes Color and candy Are what filled her life Round until dawn How I remember thee Laughter and kisses But even more free She would never steal the rain to thirst If she knew her loved ones Needed it first A blood sister link Still in our hearts She's probably dancing in heaven saying "Why did the party stop?" For this star shines bright Upon her children, grandchildren Upon their children, who? For generations to come She will shine on them too I speak of no star made of heat But one made of passion and keen This dazzling star has a name, And it's name is Rose Marie In memory of my Aunt Rosey